Proverbs 28:19

“As water reflects the face, so one’s life reflects the heart” Proverbs 28:19



I care about what people think of me. I get shy, embarrassed, and ashamed; if something gets out that I don’t want out. I just want to fit into the crowd, go with the flow, and just be a follower, because I’m too weak to be a leader. I go day by day with the same pattern. I wake up, go to school, do work, talk with friends, go home, do homework, maybe go to the movies every once in a while, go on the computer, watch TV, shower, and go to sleep. But is that all my life is? Meaningless patterns going on and on like rewinding a song? Or am I called to do something else? Something more then what I am living now. Yes, I am. But I’ve been too ashamed to share it! But why should I be ashamed? Is it because not everyone believes in it? Is it because not everyone will be so nice about it? Or maybe it’s another reason that I don’t even know. What I do know is that it’s not my job to keep it a secret. Because that job is already being done well enough already. My job is to make sure that secret gets out! My job is to make sure that it is not hidden underneath all the proof that people look over all the time! My job is to tell the world about Jesus! But fear is holding me back. Fear is one of my many enemies. But My God is stronger than my fear. My God is stronger than anything that tries to hold me back. I need to have a burning passion to tell my friends, family, and even people I do not know, about Jesus. Yes, it’s not normal. But my life was not meant to be lived a normal life. My life was made to bring Jesus glory in everything He does. But I also show His glory in how I live. Just as the water reflects my face, my life will reflect my heart. People will see the way I live my life and say, “What is it about her?” That is what Jesus wants for us. Jesus wants us to be so on fire for Him, that people will be able to see it in our everyday activities! Yes, I know we can’t be perfect, I know I am not perfect. I sin against God so many times. A lot more than most people can think. But that is OK. Jesus will be there to pick me up when I fall. That does not mean I can sin whenever I want and just ask for forgiveness. That would be abusing his gift to us. We do not deserve it, but He gives it to us freely. All because He loves us. Now how can I keep something like that a secret!? How can I keep that to myself? I need to rise up against the world, and start being the leader that Christ wants me to be. By following what Christ wants me to do, I can become a leader. If there is ever a reason why someone would make me feel ashamed or shy or embarrassed, I know that I am just doing my job as a Christian. I can’t let the world stand in my way. I was not meant to be conformed, but transformed. Transformed in His image. That’s what I am doing. I am being transformed into the women of God He has called me to be.