I Suck At Blogging. YAY! Not!

I'm tired..But then again who is NOT tired. I was late to school today. But no big deal. Im here in my 2nd period trying not to fall asleep. I should be working on my story for a contest, but I really dont want to right now. Its something that I have to be inspired to do, or it just turns out bad. and I mean YUCK! SO!!!!!!!! I thought i would see how my old friend Blogger was doing. I guess I SUCK at blogging. Its been a while. FCAT testing was quite a while ago, and so was that Stabbing. :(. Things are getting back to normal here again. No one talks about it anymore and everyone walks past the spot where he died like nothing happened. So the school is doing good i guess. And I have great news! ITs been 3 years with Christ! 3 YEARS!!!!!!!! Its so awesome! I love it! I cant believe all that has happened, good and bad. But I guess thats what happenes huh? Time flys. *YAWN* Man Im tired. And hungry. Well I have to go now. Bye!

o the joys of testing.

Yes. Its the time of year for FCAT retakes!!! Luckly im done with all my testing so i dont have to test again this year. And you would think that missing class is cool. Not really. When you have teachers giving the test and classes being used for the test, your butts in the aud watching whatever movie they put on. If you dont like it, then you are screwed unless u have something else to do! Now i had my ipod, journal, and cell phone to go on facebook and all that. And even if u are in class, u still have half the class out cause THEY are testing.Lol.

School Stabbing.

Yes I am not juking. We have had a school stabbing. One kid got stabbed and killed. Everyone else is fine. We have been on lockdown all day.I have been texting and calling people all day cause this thing is just blowing up in the news. Its been on all day. I've been in a very small class all day untill they started pailing everyone in the aud where my class is. But this is a scary thought. A school shooting or stabing. You never think its gonna happen to you. Untill it happens.The reality kinda set into me after 4 hours that this is real and that this really happened. I started crying and thanking God for just keeping me and everyone else safe. Everyone is kinda calm but at the same time scared. I'm still in the aud. I've been here sence 9 this morning. And my mom is helping out with picking up kids so I'm here till school ends. The reality just keeps setting into me, and I just start crying. Thank you Lord for keeping me safe.

Being young!

Guess what? IM in class! AGAIN!!!!!! Yes I am in writing class right now and we had laptops givin to us so we can type up our work. And im done. And i was refelcting a bit on what i was writing. I was writing about my 2nd grade year. Being a little kid. How small things were such a big deal to us like getting the last juice box or something like that. And i was thinking. I MISS BEING A KID! Like think about it! We have everything done for us, we get what ever we want just by flashing the cute little puppy dog face! Like how sweet is being a kid! PIggy back rides, the cute little toys and little rides we were allowed to ride at the fair and all. Its like yea we have alot more. But its more work on our part. But as a kid, they dont want major freedom like we do, all they want is a snack, a good TV show, and mommy and or daddys lap. A kids world is really blessed dont you think. I dont know about you but i miss beinng a kid. Just writing about my childhood im seeing how good i really had it. And its like back then we WANT to grow up. But now that we have, we want to bea kid again cause it went by too fast. I do admit i like to act like a kid sometimes cause its alot of fun right? Yea it is! We all know what its like to be random and childish even now. SO i guess all I want to say is that we should enjoy the rest of our lives like we did our childhood. I guess out childhood does not have to be over just cause we hit 13 and over. We can still be random and childish at times just to enjoy life! I have to go. Bye bye and I love you all!

Tired much?

I am so tired! I just learned how to talk to people over the computer.......not typing...i mean talking! I have a mic on my laptop and i am discovering the wonders on Skype! I have so many people i know on there already. But around 2 in the morning, i could not sleep, and this other girl could not eather. So i call her over the comeputer and we are just telling eachother story after story untill before we relized, its already 5:30! We had talked so much about just so many things! It has got to be the longer convo with anyone i have hever had! It was so cool! I did a group chat with her and a few others and thats alot of fun talking with like 6 or more people over the computer. Thats really alot of fun! But the only downside is that i had my ear phones in my ears for so long i can still feeling them in my ears! LOL! Something tells me i need to turn down the sound level on my computer! Whats do you think? lol/ So yea im here in my computer class and we have a bit of free time right now so i thought i would up date my blog! :). Its bee quite a while so i thought, heck, why not! I hope you have not missed me! OUCH! My ears hurt from the blarring annoucments comeing from the speaker! Something reall tells me i need to not listen to anything for a while! lol. I have to go. See ya! :)

Break free from the chains.

How cool is that!? Im free from the chains that were making me upset and making me cry all the time! I had such low self image that i did not feel myself, i was not acting like myself, heck, i thought at times i did not LOOK like myself. I was at church doing another VBS, and durring break I went to the worship center, went to the cross, got down on my knees and started crying out everything. And i ended up doing the same thing in a friends office ( she works there. You know who u are who is reading this) I felt so bad about myself, i had thoughts of just not eating, but i know already that is stupid. I would never do so, but thats how bad it all got. I had looked into the mirror and I saw something else. IT was not me. I saw myself with a long,pale face and a look of evil/depressuon on my face. It was not me, I was crying and praying for God to help me see me......the REAL me. The ME that he made ME to be. And I had Jenny ( my church friend) praying for me. Jenny, if your reading this, THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH! Cause today I feel great. Like how great is that! Im smiling and singing VBS songs and i tried on 1 outfit for tomorrow, instend of 10 of how this all started. And i know how im gonna do my hair and all, i just feel so much better about myself. I had 2 people praying hard for me, and the next day im free from the chains of low self image. Im free! I no longer have the devil telling me any different. Cuase I am made in Christs liking and i know that im perfect in His eyes. Cuase what he makes, are no mistake, so i know that I, and everything about me, are not mistakes, but are there for a reason! Thank you so much Lord Jesus for freeing me from these chains! Your power is so amazing! I LOVE YOU LORD JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Office Life...........

OMGOSH!!!! Let it be closing time already!!! This is boring! My grandmother thought i should havea bit of office training so now im working in her office and i am bored! Im talking with the person who is helping me but now shes been working for quite a while and theres nothing for me to do here. SO.....Thought i would update my blog now huh? Well, after closing, im hoping to go change into some REAL clothes, cause i have office stuff on right now. I want to change into my cargo pants and my gray "Hii saved me" shirt and go bowling with the youth group and my sissy as well. OF CORSE she is comming. She goes to everything with me! lol. SO yea. Im not really excited for school yet but i miss friends. My summer has been mostly un eventfull as you can tell cause im not updating my blog every day like i had been. I got my ipod updated with all my music so im happy for that. And one thing that got me really mad today, was that i asked my mom to trim my bangs, and she said she did not want too, she was scared to mess it up, so i asked my dad who has a stedy hand to cut them. So he did.......it was a perfect cut, it was just way too short!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so pissed off right now!!!!!!! Im gonna wear a hat when i go bowling cause i cant take this headband hiding it much longer! Ill have to take a pic of it soon so you guys can see how badly my dad messed up my hair. I told him that he owes me BIG TIME. And i mean BIG BIG BIG time! He started off with giving me $20. But thats not enough. I swear, i cant believe how bad i look!!!!! And im stuck like this for a while. Good thing i dont have Seinor Pictures any time soon. THANK YOU LORD JESUS!!!!!! So yea.....besides that, im doing good, Looking foward to the new BarlowGirl Ablum called Love and War. THe first song out is so beautiful! i love it so much! I cant wait to hear the rest......im so excited. Well im gonna go now. God bless you all. bye bye! :)

Freak-A-Thon/Baseball game/Village people concert....YMCA!

Yea. I hada busy day and i have no idea why im still up. But anyway. I did the Freak a thon for 22 hours. So that was alot of fun. My parents made me take a nap before i went to the game so i did that.( fast foward to the game) LETS GO MARLINS LETS GO! (clap clap) is what i was chanting most of the time. THE GAME ROCKED! But we lost. :(. But they played one heck of a game. They were losing, then caught up. Then tied up just as the 9th ended!!!!!!!!! So were all chanting and screaming all over the place durring the 10th. But the Cubs got a home run and thats what lost us. But it was still fun. THEN...we had the village people concert. The Village people were the ones to bring you "Maucho man" and the all favorite dance song "YMCA" And that was just a blast. I went to bed at 2 in the morning.....only to get up at 7. Got to love it right. Its 2:15 now and i have no idea why i am still up. lol. I guess its like the other night, Im fully awake but my brain is dead. Im fixing so many typos as i go along here. Anyway, im gonna try to sleep. Night!

30 hour "Freak-A-Thon" for FaithFreaks.

FAITHFREAKS ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love the site!!!!!!! And they need money to keep running. SOOOOOOO They are having a 30 hour radio thing going on as a fund raiser. SO Im doing 24 hours of it. I would do 30 but im going to a baseball game today. ANYWAY! Its been 14 hours in the chatroom and calling the station to request songs anf play games. ITs alot of fun. Im FULLY awake but my brain is DEAD!!!!!!!!!!! IM surpised i can write this! ITs about sun rise time right now, im by the window. I may go outside in a bit to see the sun rise. We are having alot of fun going crazy with eachother on the site. We are all going nuts. Talking about Llamas and frogs and food and random facts. But hey, whatever keeps us up and awake. We are having alot of good laughs and food fights and sharing of food and soda going on( all in a cahtroom.....who would have thought!) so yea......im gonna go watch the sun rise now! BYE BYE!

New Poem-All around me

Yes, i know the title sounds like flyleaf, but i had that song in my head when I wrote this............in my head. LOL! For the first 3 parts anyway. Its not done yet, but its really pretty and i wanted to post it up. So here it is. Enjoy! Ill post the rest when it is finished.

All around me
There you are
You never turn back
Your never too far

My heart is on fire
Feels like its burning
Its the feeling of love
Cause its you im serving

Blessing after blessing
Time after time
Im so glad that
Your love is mine

My heart is racing
Hard to breath
My hands up to you
I never want to leave

Your love is like living
For the very first time
Watching me step by step
To make sure im fine

I gave you my soul
I gave you my life
I gave you my sin
And i know its right.

poem-"i now know who i am"

i wrote this cause of something im going thru now. But the poem has nothing to do with what im going thru. so enjoy! :)

I thought i was so weak
But God told me I am strong
I thought i was a mistake
And God proved me wrong.
I thought I was no one
God said i am his child
I thought i was alone
But God was there all the while
I thought He was a lie
Now He is my life till I die
I thought heaven was not real
until God showed me the real deal.
I lived in chaos each and every day
till God showed me all His ways
And when I fall short to the way of men
God has a way of lifting me up again
God saved me and Im free
He can do it to you, just believe
And before you know it, when time is right
He'll come and take you in, with all of his might!

IM BACK! I mean my old self with Christ is back.

O wow. Why is it......or HOW is it, that we get our minds so off God, that we are not who we are anymore. I had been so far from God, even when I was in Junaluska. I was not with God....like with with God. I had been doing something that I really should not have been doing. I wanted to stop, but i just enjoyed it too much. And I knew I had a problem. But something God did just showed how powerful He is. I had this really bad dream that just freaked me out!!! I was crying about it like nuts cause i could not get one part of the dream out of my head. Like it would just keep playing in my head. And im sure that its something NO ONE wants to keep thinking about, or would want to keep seeing over and over again. So as im crying i was praying for God to take it out of my hands. I was praying for God to take away my dream and not to think about it again. Next morning and today, i have not thought about it. HOW AWESOME IS THAT!? Today in church, i almost did not go, the paster talked about taking away things in your life that you dont need. And what i was doing, was something i did not need. I prayed and almost cried asking God to forgive me of it and i said that thru Him i could stop. Just like the dream stoped coming back to me. Soo yea. Im back to myself and it feels great. Ive missed the Lord so much! SO thats my little tidbit of the day. LOL! God bless!

Lake Junaluska,,,,,,its over. :(

Well, my AWESOME week at Junaluska is over. It was AWESOME~!!!!!!!! I just loved it up there. Tuesday was the talent show and it rocked! And thanks to God, so did I!!!! It was awesome being up on that stage singing! Wensday, there was an orgen concert.....was not that exciting for me. Now Thrusday ticked me off. It started off good with the rehersing for the concert. Then we had alot of time for ourselves. Then the concert came and that was awesome. Then it was time for the youth dance. Now they got my email of songs i wanted played, and they played them....when there was only 5 people there! Then it was back to everyone elses music when everyone was there. Then get this.....Soldja boy started playing. Witch i got kinda mad at but danced to it with my version of it in my head...refusing to sing that stupid version. Then i heard all the cuss words in the song! The DJ was stupid enough to play that song.....AND WITH THE CUSS WORDS!!!!!! I almost went off on him but i just let it go. A few more songs played, some of the line dance songs that we all like. Then i could not believe the song that came next, and everyone was singing and danceing to. The song "I kissed a girl" comes blaring thru the speakers and EVERYONE is singing it. I ran out of the room in disblife! Like this is a CHRISTIAN retreat and this is the kind of music we pick to play for kids 10 to 19 to listen to!? I went off on the DJ then. I asked him why he played it. He said someone requested it. And i told him i did not think that was the kind of music to be played in a christian envioment. He told me that if i were to pay him, he would play some "Chrisitan envirment music". I was like...UGH!!!!!!!! And went back to my hotel room. I hated it! But that was really the only BAD thing about it.

Life is Good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life is so good right now! Im on the tird floor, sitting in a rocking chair looking at the mountains from the balcany. How much sweeter can life get!!!!!!! Well Junaluska is turning out to be better then the past two years i have been here. I guess thrid times a charm. LOL! The paster talked today about God invading your personal space. How we are always in our comfert zone, our own little space. But how God has other plan for us. To get out of our comfert zone, so he invades our space by getting us to new places. This lession was very powerful for me. This one song we are doing kinda fits that tone of the sermen called "Go light your world". Its just really pretty! Thats my favorit of the 6 songs we are doing. I really feel the Holy Sprit moving in me! Giving my voice to go higher then a 2 sapraano! lol. To like a 1st................and thats HIGH!!!!!! lol! So yea im having alot of fun here. I met up with an online firend and that was sweet! She came over here, we played pool, and we went back to my hotel room and we just hing out for a few hours. Im hoping to see her again this week before we go back to where we live. God is just so cool on how He can take a girl from Cali, and a girl from Florida, and put them in the same state, same town, same week. How awesome is that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And God is just so powerful! I just love the view of the mountions that i have! I love,love , love love love love love love love LOVE the view here!!!!!! Good thing its only monday!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause im not ready to leave this!!!!!!!!!!! Anyway, thats all i have for you now! Gonna see a drama thing tonight! ITs gonna be SWEET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bye and God bless......love you all!

Sweet Home Junaluska!

"Sweet home Junaluska, where the lake is so blue. Sweet home Junaluska, im acoming back to you!" Yes the time is here to go to Lake Junaluska in North Carolina!!!!! I am super excited! I love that place so much! I just hope i can be more at peace with God this year then i was last year. Its so pretty, the lake, the smoky mountions, the fog when you wake up in the morning, the.....EVERYTHING!!!!!! Im hoping to have alot of time with God while im there. So many spots to pick from! LOL! Plus we have the talent show and the concert! AW MAN! I need to write about Junaluska every day! Yes i will have my laptop with me so i will keep you updated! Im just so excited! We just finished packing, Brandons gonna have an air card for me and him so i can be online while in the car on the road. And i cant wait to see old friends again. Plus an online friend my family and I are gonna meet up with! This is gonna be the best vacation EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Any way, who ever may read this before tomorrow, please pray for a safe trip and same fun. need to do a few things then go to sleep! Good night everyone!

Journal......................

i had no idea it would be so painful to fill up a journal!!!!! LOL! I had this one journal for a year. And its been thru everything with me. the laughs, joy,tears,up times and so on and so forth. And i just filled up the last page today!!!!!!!!!!! So yea. I never really understood why people wrote in a journal untill i got one. Now im on the serch for a new journal that i can fill with my up and down times, my prayers, my laughs, joys, sorrows, and everything else. I just love having a journal that you can just write everything in when something is wrong. Your deepest thoughts are safe in writing and no one can see them. I was looking thru the pages of my journal before i put it on my bookshelf, i saw all the up times with God i had, the times i was really down, the first draft poems, the randomness, the things that friends put on one page while i was not looking, untill i caught them and almost raised hell. lol...........good times. You know, in a way, i think your jouranl is your best friend! IT knows everything about you! So this blog is for my filled up journal!!! Im gonna miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

VBS week................

Sorry I did not post about VBS the rest of the week but nothing really that exciting happened. 2nd day was Moses goong to tell pharo to let his people go, and I was the queen so i had stuff thrown at me by the kids. Day 3, was when God takes the first born of every family. We had the kids paint red lines on the paper before entering the house, and when the "angle of death" came, i had to act like a person walking around, have the angle kill me, and fall. Most of the kids just laughed. 4th day, Was Jesus............yea.......weird going from Moses to Jesus. But yea. We did a last supper kind of thing. We were all bored trying to think about what we could do for third group, our worst group. So i had the idea of putting salt in the grape juice shots we had for them. Everyone loved the idea so we did it. So when 3rd group came, we had everything set up, then when the kids drank the grape juice, NOTHING HAPPENED! NO "EWWWWW" no reaction, nothing! We waited too long. There were a few that did have the taste, and only two kids got that.......so we failed in out prank. Ans day 5, was moses spliting the red sea. We took the kids down to the tunnel we have at my church, and we had the kids run thru, and me and another helper were in this little cubby hole the tunnel has, and as the kids ran by, we sprayed them with fresh water and salt water. That was great!!!!!! Thats always fun! So yea, thats really all that happened durring VBS. But it was alot of fun. Cant wait for next years VBS.

VBS......DAY 1!!!!

o wow. VBS day 1 was AWESOME!!!!!! But one thing is that im never gonna do drama again cause i have to miss my favorite parts of the day. The opening and closing! I have to miss opening to go over what we are gonna act out, and closing so we can set up for the next day. :(. But we had some very "interesting" kids in drama today! The story wasa moses and the burning bush, you know, when God told him to free his people from pharo and all that.......yea. WELL, we had a pretty cool burning bush, and a place for the kids to sit and all that. So we had the first 3 groups come in for the first showing...lol. There was this one little girl who kept scream " That did not really happen! I know the true history!" I was trying my best not to laugh! I was dying inside! So yea, Then we had 2 groups come in for the 2nd showing. And it goes good then we ask the kids what the hardest thing for them to do. This one little girl said "Its hard for me to hurt mother nature cause it comes from God and I come from God!" LOL! I was laughing trying to hold it in but i failed! I had to cough to hide my laugh!!! So im just waiting to see what the little girl had to say about tomorrows story. Its when Moses goes back to egpet and has the plages go thru egept to convince Pharo to let everyone go. Now what i find weird about the week regarding the stories. This does not sound right. MOnday.......Moses. Tuseday........Moses. Wensday.......Moses. Thrusday.....Jesus. Friday......Moses. Like what in the world......we have 3 moses stoies.....we skip a few hundered years to Jesus.....then back to moses again......THAT MAKES NO SENCE!!!!!!!!!!!! But we have to follow it.....we have no other way to do it....we have to follow it!

Pre Vacation Bible School (VBS)

YES! At last the day is almost here! One of the reasons why i look forward to summer....its VACATION BIBLE SCHOOL!!!!!! VBS is a kids program we do at my church for pre schools thru 5th grade. It really is alot of fun and so many kids get to learn about God! Its awesome! This years theam is Crocadile Dock. Or as i like to call it...Croc Dock. lol. Im so excited! The songs are so much fun and im doing drama! I get to act for everyone! WOOT! Im really excited. Our bible point for tomorrow is "God loves us" and everyone has to shout in responce "FEAR NOT!!!!" Its really cute! I cant wait to start the first day! I have been doing good. Sorry i have not been on in a while but ive been kinda busy. Its been raining alot here and its kinda cool. lol. What else is new. o yea....some one stule my yearbook and ipod touch. :( a few days before school ended. But its ok i guess. I got in ALOT and i mean ALOT of trouble. But thats over with, and the yearbook is whatever, and i can always raise enough money to get a new ipod so its all cool. wow, thats all i have to say. Talk about a short blog for today BUT i will keep you all updated on each day of VBS, whats going on with it, what happened each day, and what mess ups we did in Drama! LOL. Bye and God bless! :)

Birthday Day!

YES! I am 17! WOOT! Thanks be to God. If it was not for Him, i might of been dead the day i was born. Long story.....lets just say i could not breath!!! But God healed me and now I am 17 and still working on God wants me to do! YAY! Today was great! I wore my crown to school and i got to be birthday/Gods princess. I had random people wish me a happy birthday and i only had two classes today! Durring last class teaceher said to go where ever we wanted. So on my way there, i ran into 3 friends. So i walked around a bit with them untill i came up to a calssroom that had two of my friend in there. I sais goodbye to my other friends and asked the teacher if i could stay in there. The teacher knows me well so she let me stay. So i chatted with my friends untill school was out. Then Blondie and I went to the 7/11 for monster....but they had none. I asked if they could restock for me cause it was my birthday, and he said if its my birhtday, he would give me a free slurpie of any size i wanted!!!!! So Blondie and I split it, and we got a big bag of cheetos. SO after that we headed back to school to wait for my mom to take us to the movies. BUt she took forever in her meeting so we went with Blondies mom to pubilx where Blondie got me a purple windchime with butterflys! Then we went to BK to have some lunch. Then we chilled at Blondies house till my mom picked us up. We got there and we saw the new night at the mussiam movie! IT WAS AWSOME! SO then after that, we went to........brace yourself...........HOT TOPIC!!!!! LOL! Blondie got a shirt for the New Moon movie coming soon. Then my mom was already there so we went to Cleirs. We got a neckless......one with a purple heart and one with a blue heart, and it says "Sisters at heart!" IT WAS PERFECT FOR ME AND BLONDIE!!!! And i got a black wrist band with a pick peace sign with silver rine stones on it. Then we went to Johnny Rockets. They sang to me happy birtday. and after a while we left to go home. Then it was time for cards and my gift. All the cards were purple......but the gift was not, I guess i can get over the fact that the gift is not purple because the gift was a LAPTOP that im typing on right now! How awesome is that!? Then we went out to dinner and i had a very emmbarcing birthday singing! But thats over. So now im home eating ice cream cake, in my PJs, Wearing my crown.....lol. and watching NCIS!!!!!! I just thank God that I am still alive today! THANK YOU LORD JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Final, school, rain, bike ride, God, and cell phone!

Yes,,,,quite alot to talk about! LOL!!!! Ill start with the final. I had my LAST FINAL TODAY!!!! WOOT! I dont think i did that well. It was math. But i suck at math! So yea. The rest of the school day was chill. I slept in english, threw paper air plains and paper balls at one antoher in 4th period. In acting we watched the rest of the finals....And my friend Jackie went. She had an awesome skit!!! Shes really good at acting. ok. Then we have rain. As soon as we got out of school, it started raining. OF CORSE i was in it. Lol! Blondie and I went to the 7/11 to go get a monster then i was trying to find my bro so he could take me home. After i got home, i changed into some PJs to get warm. So my mom had to leave so that left me alone. So i changed into some mathching PJs, slippers and went for a bike ride forr quite a while. First i road to my 2nd church and i ran into my friend Ashley who lives close by and we were chatting. After that i road to the park praying and when i got to the park, it was raining. So no one was there. I ended up swinging on the swing for quite a while singing to God. I just felt like all my sins were be washed away in the rain. I felt like God was saying to me "Shannon, your sins are forgivin. You are my child and I love you very much. Dont worry about your past sins anymore cause i have already fogoten them." No i did not hear a voice saying that, but its what i felt like he could have been saying. lol. So yea...I love my bike rides in the rain with the Lord. Its awesome! And last but not least....my cell phone. With being in the rain, it effected my cell phone. I can not hit the "talk" butten or hit "send" on my phone when it is fliped out. I can still send by flipping the phone back in. And i can do the long way of dialing someone. But it still works. Im hoping that my phone just drys up the water that is in it. Im gonna take the battery out and blow dry my phone to get the water out. I hope it works again because im not getting a new phone any time soon! And YAY!!!! First post of June! My birthday is in two days and yes youll hear from me tomorrow and then! Blog ya tomorrow. :) GOD BLESS!!!!!!!!!!!!

"Birthday" party

ok....so THIS is the last post of may. My grandmother threw me a "birthday" party...even though my bithday is not till the 3rd. But its cool. No one would tell me what was going on at first. My brother blind folded me and took me thru alot of weird turns so i would not know where im going. Then, still blind folded, he helps me out of the car....but i open my eyes. We are at my gandmothers hiuse. I go in to see my two baby cousions waiting for me, then screaming SURPRISE!!!!!!!! But atfet that,,,,its been more of an adult gathering then for my birthday. I got $25 from my aunt and alot of make up from my grandmother. And we had pizza and now we are eating icecream sundays. yum!!! So yea. Im gald i have a family who will do this type of thing for me. I did not want a thing this year. I have a computer, cell phone, ipod,(2 of them), a camrea, and Jesus........lol. Im good. So this was sweet. On my real birhtday im gonna go see the movie "up" with my mom and sister ( best friend). So that should be fun! g2g......cake!!!!!!!!! YAY!

Last post of May! Hello June!

Hello fellow bloggers!!!!!! What be up with all of you!? I happen to be great! God works in so many ways that its so beyond words to even begin to explain. Something happened to me yesterday, that i swear eather God come into my body and took over or he moved in front of me to take it all for me. HOW AWESOME IS THAT!? Something really bad that happened, God used to show me that he is an awesome God. Thats the power of praying for you huh? Im here home alone about to get ready for church. Im listening to HillSongs new album. The song "Tear down the walls" is really long but its really good. So yea. My birthday is just 3 days away! Im starting right now ( well, 3 days ago) to start acting my age! My inner child sometimes takes over me and i act like a 14 year old......Not 16. And soon ill be 17. So yea. Im really setting my mind on a better school year next year, be more independent, a learners permeit, mabye getting a scholership so i can go to collage.......and of corse...the MAIN thing im setting my mind on is Jesus! Cause I KNOW that with Jesus....all things are possable. Still working on family issues but nothing that a bit a prayer could hopfuly fix. I cant believe its almost June....almost summer....almost there. Im sure everyone is excited for that huh? Well look at me...its almost like im just tyoing to type but what can i say, i love to write! So i guess im gonna read my bible a bit, get some breakfast, take a shower and get dressed so i can go on up to church! Bye bye fellow bloggers..........................:)

How can you tell whos lying to you?

Ok.....this is weird! I just hapd a party in my last class and were all chilling and having a good time. And this one girl who i kinda know said she wanted to hear me sing again. And im like " again?" and she said i was in chorus with her last year and she sat behind me. She said i have a voice like an angle......but im thinking shes thinking of my friend who sat next to me Andriana. She has a really fabolus voice! So when i said that she said she did, but then went back to my voice. SO she wanted me to sing a bit to her. She wanted me to sing a bit of HillSong for her. So i did so, i sang to her my new song and she just loves my voice. SO im singing on the way to 7th period and i go up to my best friend and she told me to stop singing. So I asked her why and she said i cant sing. Now i have never been told i had a really good voice...so that was new to me. BUt my best friend told me that i cant sing. Now why would my best friend lie to me about that, but someone who i barley know would want me to sing to her. How can I tell who is lying to me? Cause now im having mixed.......well.....you know. Im not sure if the other girl was trying to make fun of me or if my best friend just hates the fact i can sing. IDK! But I dont know myself. Ive recorded myself before and i think its like 50/50. Or is it the way people hear my voice? Who knows? But i know that the one thing that will never change, is singing for my maker....the Lord Jesus! He is worthy of my praiseand i will sing to HIm rather people tell me i sing good or that i break windows!

English Essay.......o wow....part 2

I know..i know...i know. LAME! lol. But i have to tell you what happened with my english essay! Rembmer how i could not remember the 2 one........i read it on my paper. It was how much of a major difference you feel!!!! HOW COULD I FORGET THAT!!!??? O well. So yea.....I wrote my essay on pretty much my expercese on being a Christian.....which is somewhat what the teacher wanted. So i go on (pretty much) expalin Gods love and plan for your lives and all that. And this was funny, i had to do so cause i was so on fire for God this morning. At the end of the essay i wrote "Jesus is coming back soon. He loves you very much and that he would want you to make this trasformation" lol! Walking out of the classroom i told my teacher "enjoy the essay! :)" lol. I cant wait to see him on monday and see if he says anything! But that was pretty cool. Now just like part one, im gonna go on and on and on about my day. 4th period we had a party in musical theather and we just ate and sang abunch of show tunes. Always fun. 6th period, i did my skit. It turned out GREAT! To me, i think its the best one out of 8 acts so far. We had blcoking down, outfits, lines, everything! I have it recorded.......but the first part did not come out that well....:( but i have the rest and ill post on youtube ASAP! Then lunch time. My "group" left me for some reason so i went to go eat with my best friend( sister) and half way thru, it started to pour. So as im running out of the rain to keep dry....I said to her " i wish i could go out there but i dont have a change of clothes!" But then i remembered the outfit i had for acting, and its "in school uniform" so i went out in the rain for about 20 mins playing hackysack with an old friend and a few of her friends. Then I got changed and go alot of cat calls. UGH! But its high school and i was dressed fancy. what can you do? Then......DUN DUN DUN! DRAMA!!!!!!!!!!!! On my way back to math from the restroom, and i run into my ex boyfriend!!!! Now i broke up with him cause i want to get closer to God again. So he saw me and ran up to hug me and we were talking for a bit. Then he said that he misses me and kisses my head like he used to. Now to tell you the truth, i missed him as well. So picture if you will.........ex boyfriend misses ex girlfriend and ex girlfriend misses ex boyfriend and both are single. one word......HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wont lie....i did kiss him a few times and i felt something! I really want to get back with him but two things are keeping me from that. One....is it Gods will? and two.....hes gonna be gone next year. :(. Ill see what goes on and keep posted! GOD BLESS EVERYONE!

7 more days left of school? Where did the time go?

Wow...I cant believe it. 7 more days of school left!? Thats just so amazing. ITs like where did the time go!? Its like i remember my frist day of freshmen year and now im about to be over with school? Thats just nuts. Like......wow. WELL ANYWAY! Finals are going good. I had to cram last night cause i wanted to do well on my science...I really hope i did well! Iys just so cool how I have had Jesus with me for almost 3 year already! Hes been with me sence freshmen year and i swear i have no idea what i would have done without him in my life! Hes done so many things thats its just too much to even say. All the gifts hes givin me, all the love ahe has shown, all the message hes has told me thru friends and the Word! How awesome is our God!? ANd now look, my 3rd year of high school is about to be over. When i thought that freshmen year was long. The other two years just flew by! Well back to whatever it is i was writing about. Finals. I HATE THEM! But what can you do huh? Gotta take them.....gotta pass them, and very soon forget about them! Thank God for that last part! lol.....so yea.....thats really all i have for today. I was justing thinking about how school is almost over and i thought i would share!

English Essay........o wow.

I had my English essay today......i was late to school so i did not get to finish. But you know what the topic was? It was to write about how the vaules used in an Inner Sprituial Transformation can help people in real life. im like.....wow! You can bet i had no trouble thinking about what i was gonna write about. I first went off explain that if people oick to believe there is a God( which we all know there is but this is for my English teacher) then they feel they have a purpose here on earth and that they are gonna go somewhere after this and not be in the ground for good after they die. Thats all i got up too. But im gonna go on explain.......o wow...i forgot my 2nd one. Its writin on my paper so ill have it when I go back to finish it. and my thrid thing was how we all get stressed out sometimes and it feels like we have the weight of the world on our sholders, but its not so bad when you have Jesus right behind you to give you a hand. I STILL cant think of the 2nd one.....lol! wow. major brain gap. o well. So yea..4th peeriod we did essay as well and that was just what i thought of the class. Its musical theather. First class we have ever had at our school. After that we are all there singing and danceing to show tunes.....what ever we knew. 6th period was acting and i had my outfit for the skit and everything, to find that im going next class. UGH! But o well. Then lunch with my crazy friends Jackie and Andrea. I love them......the both of them together is like setting off a time bomb! At any moment they could EXPLODED!!!!!!!!!! lol. Then I had 8th perid. which is math. yuck. All i did was finish some stuff that had to be turned in and then after that just chill. Then after school i met up with my sister ( best friend....we call eachother sisters) and the best buddies club at my school, and went across the street to a pizza place to have our last outing of the year!!!! WOOT!!!!! That was fun. Blondie and I STUFFED our faces with pizza, soda and cake......i need to do alot of biking to get all that off me. With my sister, shes lucky......its gonna burn off within 5 mins. ANYWAY! So yea. Her mom took me home and now im just chillen here on Mysapce, Facebook and Blogger. LOL! So yea......Thats my day. Remember how i said that when i write, i feel like everything around me just blockes out.......writing on my blog is the same thing! I am th only person i know that can take a really boring day, and make it sound cool and fill up this much space! LOL! I space out while writing!

WOOT!

Oh man Lord Jesus!

The Lord is so cool! I mean really! No matter how bad i feel, with a bit of prayer, you can feel better again. So many rumors are passing by me like wild fire and i cant get out of it, my FAMILY is making fun of me about my weight, and i just felt like crud today. The only thing that kept me going was God. God was there telling me that its all OK. He was telling me that I am made the way He wanted me to be and that it was all gonna be ok. Now as a teen, i was thinking about starving myself, but after 10 mins, i shook it off and started crying and praying. Cause i know that its WRONG! All girls who may read my blog......if you starve yourself or force yourself to throw up.....i really want to say, stop! God does not want you to feel like crud about yourself! God loves you.....and most likly, your not fat,or over weight! Most likly your underweight but are tring to meet the standers of the world! To look like modles........trust me..most likly THEY dont even look like that! Its all computerized and junk. Dont follow the way that the world wants you, follow what God wants for you, and what you may be doing, may not be his plan. OK, im sorry, i had to put that little tidbit. lol......but besides that, my day was really good! Im gonna do my acting final tomorrow! Im excited! WOOT! Wish me luck! BYe and God bless

(wow what a random blog post today!)

God.......I LOVE YOU!

Wow! God is just.....awesome! Like its just so....awesome. LOL! I met up with my friends from my freshmen year. Gaby, Vani, and Saghi, Carlos,David, and Jeff! Our "little group" met up on friday at Gabys house. We were having a good time just chillin and we watched the movie mouse hunt. I SWAER! If we were at the movies for real, we would have been kicked out cause of all the talking and laughing we did! LOL! So after that was done, we sat around and talked and ate icecream,,,yum. Now heres something really funny. You know your around Jesus Freaks when someone says we are gonna read the bible, and everyone cheers!!!!!! lol. But little did i know my heart was gonna be effected in a HUGE way! I had been down with God for a while now s i am JUST getting back with God. So my friend Vani read to us James Chapter 4. And im telling you, everything she was reading, was kinda like she was reading my heart, my mind, my soul. And i started breathing really hard. My heart was beeting really fast,and i could not stop thinking about God. All 3 ways i feel God with me, was there at that moment! Then we had prayer before we had to leave. The prayer is what got me. She was praying for everyone, and she came to my request about getting closer with God. I felt God just go thru me! And i was like " THANK YOU LORD JESUS! THANK YOU FOR EVERTHING! FOR NOT LEAVING ME! FOR NOT GIVING UP ON ME! FOR LOVING ME NO MATTER WHAT!!!!!" I was just praying that in my head and i started crying! LUCKLY, i was able to whip my tears away without anyone seeing after the prayer. Then Gaby,Vani,and Saghi took me home and we were just chatting about the time we had and they were reading some of my poems and everything. And after i got home, i started reading my bible. I had not done that in a long time! THANK YOU LORD JESUS! Its amazing what God can do with good friends! So yea.....I have a little bible now so i can take it to school and other places. Now i just need to find a mini book bag so i can carry my bible and my 3 journals! lol!

Finals, Finals, and, you guessed it...more finals!

Yup...Its the dretful time of FINALS again! And i have one thing to say to that...UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate finals! I took 4 essay finals today! But, what can you do. Sence its essays an im good at writing, i have been taking the extra to talk to God a bit and write in my journal and look back at some entries i have writin and poems from the past and get some bible verses that friends send me from my cell phone down in my 3rd journal. Yes....I have 3 journals....always with me. The first one is for my personal entries. The 2nd one is for poems that i have writin........and the 3rd is for bible verses. But enough about my journals. Back to my day. Im in 7th period right now, and i finished my final. Now im just chilling on my blog! I swear, writing is like my great escape! I love to write! I love how everything that goes on around me just seems to not matter when i am writing. LIke right now! I just broke it to change the song on my ipod. Im listening to "We Pray" by BarlowGirl right now. Its a good song. So yea. I cant wait for the summer! VBS, Lake Junaluska, and hanging out with my best friends! WOOT! Exciting huh? My best friend Blondie is helping out with VBS.....we are doing drama department! WOOT! I wanted music but they had enough people helping out with music. Then I am gonna spend as much time with Blondie and Stephabug the week after that cause then the next week I am in North Carolina! WITHOUT THEM!!!!! :(. But you can bet i am going to call them when ever i can! lol. Well, sence i am now just writing random stuff,im gonna stop typing now! BYE BYE!

More Rain!

Wow....3 posts in one day. IM on fire! WOOT! Anyway. Im here at home and im eating dinner, home alone.....and i started to feel down cause of something that someone had just told me. I kept praying and i felt much better. Then i heard thunder outside! Then after a while it started to rain a little bit. Then it started to pour. Thats when i went outside! I just love the rain so much! i put on my ipod to keys to the kingdom by group one crew and i was praying durring that. Then the song What if his people prayed by casting crowns came on....im there in the rain lifting my hands to the Lord and letting the rain freely fall on me while i was singing that! I just love how the rain can effect me so much! I feel like God is telling me that all is forgivin and the rain comes and washes it all away! I just love how God works!

Biking in the Rain.

Yup. The crazy person i am just went biking in the rain. Well, I was riding while it was still dry. So I had not been on my bike in the longest time. So I rode around from my house to the same area like a mile away, like 3 times. I was on the route back to my house when it started raining. First im like " UGH! " But then I said " Just what the doctor ordered!" lol. Cause i LOVE the rain. So im going back to my house in the rain with my ipod on, but then i just made a turn and said " Im gonna stay out here for a bit" So Im biking and you can guess all the crazy looks from drivers im getting. But im there, listening and singing along to all the songs that come on, and i felt like God was really cleaning me! Like Hes just whiping away EVERYTHING i had been doing for a while that He would not aprove of. The area i kept going around was my 2nd church. And while i was there for the third time, i rested a bit. A few mins later i see my good friend Jenny come out from work. We talked and i told her about my biking in the rain and all......and were just chattin about other things. Then she got into her car to drive home. Just as i got back on my bike, the song "Everlasting God" comes on. Now i LOVE that song! So the whole entire way home im singing( out loud) "You are the everlasting God....everlasting God, you do not faint you dont grow weary! Your the defender of the weak, you comfert those in need, you lift us up on wings like egals!" And the song is right! God is there. ALL THE TIME! Watching out for us whenever we need Him. He comferts us when we need Him.......He gives us strenght to carry on the battle that we fight everyday! I just love how God can talk to us in so many ways!!!!!!! God is just......as awesome as can be! THANK YOU GOD!

How does God work so...perfectly!!!???

I swear! How does He do it!? Its so beyond my mind! This morning i was like really depressed, but somewhere in 1st period, just listening to my ipod, i got happy. Like I really felt happy! I was joking around with my friends, laughing at anything i thought was funny, and just enjoying every moment! Like, how does God do it!? Today is a brand new day for me. I am turning over the leaf i have been with of being in the world for a while, and getting back with God again! Being in the world, its not worth it! I can really say its not worth it! In the end, all you get is pain, and fear, and a few other bad things along with it. Being with God, and being in the world, is NOT the same at all. Like in the world, you have to meet everyones standers for them to like you. With God, HE ALREADY LOVES YOU! Theres nothing you HAVE to change about you. Now if you WANT to change for God, thats a different story! Worldly love..........can not COMPARE to the love that your Heavenly Father has all ready givin you! Man....look at me! Im just going on and on about how awesome Gods power and might really is! Man do i miss this feeling! I forgot where it is in the bible......but theres a verse that says something like "my old self has been crusafied with Christ, and my new self lives for His glory" Dont quote me on it cause im not so sure. Well today i am letting my old self die along with Christ and letting my new new self live for His Glory once again! I LOVE YOU LORD JESUS!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THAT YOU DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Best Friends.

I swear. What would life be like without your CRAZY best friends. All wyas there to back you up. To pick you up when your down, and to just have someone to be really random and hyper with! Thats how I feel with thses two with me! We have Blondie( the blonde haired girl) Stephabug( the black haird girl) and Shanaynay( ME!) As you can tell, we spend alot of time together! Cuase we just love being around eachother so much! You can always count on your best friends to be there for you and vice versa! WOOT! THANK GOD FOR BEST FRIENDS!

Mothers Day!

So today is mothers day! WOOT WOOT! So what are you gonna do for your mother today huh? Take her out to eat, mabye get her an outfit, some cards and balloons, mabye some flowers? Well, how about u take the time to just sit down with her and chat. When was the last time you thanked your mom for something. Our moms do everything for us every day! Like if it was not for her, you would not be here. ( Now i know ur dad helped as well but save that for Fathers Day! ...........lol) But for real now. Our moms do everything for us! Take care of us when we are sick, your number 1 fan at any sport you play, work to get everything done, and STILL has time to talk to you about your day. Thats just awesome! And they do all this without pay eather( well, mabye her job pays her but u get what im saying!)So lets take today to let our moms know that we LOVE everything that she does for us. And heck, throw in there an "I love you" as well. <3!

Woot Woot! BLOG!

Well, this is my first time bloging so................yea. I only know that one of my friends has a blog but im sure a few more do! So yea. Today i am going up to church to babysit some kids as they take down a stage set we had. But its cool.........i love little kids! Mothers day is almost here! YAY! My mom said not to get her anything but a card........so i would go and get her something anyway, but this year, ill just grant her wish on that one. OH! Great news...........I PASSED THE FCAT READING! WOOT! The Lord was with me and I was able to pass! Now i dont have to worry about that anymore! lol...............well, thats all i have to write but ill keep bloging. Bye and God bless!