"Birthday" party

ok....so THIS is the last post of may. My grandmother threw me a "birthday" party...even though my bithday is not till the 3rd. But its cool. No one would tell me what was going on at first. My brother blind folded me and took me thru alot of weird turns so i would not know where im going. Then, still blind folded, he helps me out of the car....but i open my eyes. We are at my gandmothers hiuse. I go in to see my two baby cousions waiting for me, then screaming SURPRISE!!!!!!!! But atfet that,,,,its been more of an adult gathering then for my birthday. I got $25 from my aunt and alot of make up from my grandmother. And we had pizza and now we are eating icecream sundays. yum!!! So yea. Im gald i have a family who will do this type of thing for me. I did not want a thing this year. I have a computer, cell phone, ipod,(2 of them), a camrea, and Jesus........lol. Im good. So this was sweet. On my real birhtday im gonna go see the movie "up" with my mom and sister ( best friend). So that should be fun! g2g......cake!!!!!!!!! YAY!

Last post of May! Hello June!

Hello fellow bloggers!!!!!! What be up with all of you!? I happen to be great! God works in so many ways that its so beyond words to even begin to explain. Something happened to me yesterday, that i swear eather God come into my body and took over or he moved in front of me to take it all for me. HOW AWESOME IS THAT!? Something really bad that happened, God used to show me that he is an awesome God. Thats the power of praying for you huh? Im here home alone about to get ready for church. Im listening to HillSongs new album. The song "Tear down the walls" is really long but its really good. So yea. My birthday is just 3 days away! Im starting right now ( well, 3 days ago) to start acting my age! My inner child sometimes takes over me and i act like a 14 year old......Not 16. And soon ill be 17. So yea. Im really setting my mind on a better school year next year, be more independent, a learners permeit, mabye getting a scholership so i can go to collage.......and of corse...the MAIN thing im setting my mind on is Jesus! Cause I KNOW that with Jesus....all things are possable. Still working on family issues but nothing that a bit a prayer could hopfuly fix. I cant believe its almost June....almost summer....almost there. Im sure everyone is excited for that huh? Well look at me...its almost like im just tyoing to type but what can i say, i love to write! So i guess im gonna read my bible a bit, get some breakfast, take a shower and get dressed so i can go on up to church! Bye bye fellow bloggers..........................:)

How can you tell whos lying to you?

Ok.....this is weird! I just hapd a party in my last class and were all chilling and having a good time. And this one girl who i kinda know said she wanted to hear me sing again. And im like " again?" and she said i was in chorus with her last year and she sat behind me. She said i have a voice like an angle......but im thinking shes thinking of my friend who sat next to me Andriana. She has a really fabolus voice! So when i said that she said she did, but then went back to my voice. SO she wanted me to sing a bit to her. She wanted me to sing a bit of HillSong for her. So i did so, i sang to her my new song and she just loves my voice. SO im singing on the way to 7th period and i go up to my best friend and she told me to stop singing. So I asked her why and she said i cant sing. Now i have never been told i had a really good voice...so that was new to me. BUt my best friend told me that i cant sing. Now why would my best friend lie to me about that, but someone who i barley know would want me to sing to her. How can I tell who is lying to me? Cause now im having mixed.......well.....you know. Im not sure if the other girl was trying to make fun of me or if my best friend just hates the fact i can sing. IDK! But I dont know myself. Ive recorded myself before and i think its like 50/50. Or is it the way people hear my voice? Who knows? But i know that the one thing that will never change, is singing for my maker....the Lord Jesus! He is worthy of my praiseand i will sing to HIm rather people tell me i sing good or that i break windows!

English Essay.......o wow....part 2

I know..i know...i know. LAME! lol. But i have to tell you what happened with my english essay! Rembmer how i could not remember the 2 one........i read it on my paper. It was how much of a major difference you feel!!!! HOW COULD I FORGET THAT!!!??? O well. So yea.....I wrote my essay on pretty much my expercese on being a Christian.....which is somewhat what the teacher wanted. So i go on (pretty much) expalin Gods love and plan for your lives and all that. And this was funny, i had to do so cause i was so on fire for God this morning. At the end of the essay i wrote "Jesus is coming back soon. He loves you very much and that he would want you to make this trasformation" lol! Walking out of the classroom i told my teacher "enjoy the essay! :)" lol. I cant wait to see him on monday and see if he says anything! But that was pretty cool. Now just like part one, im gonna go on and on and on about my day. 4th period we had a party in musical theather and we just ate and sang abunch of show tunes. Always fun. 6th period, i did my skit. It turned out GREAT! To me, i think its the best one out of 8 acts so far. We had blcoking down, outfits, lines, everything! I have it recorded.......but the first part did not come out that well....:( but i have the rest and ill post on youtube ASAP! Then lunch time. My "group" left me for some reason so i went to go eat with my best friend( sister) and half way thru, it started to pour. So as im running out of the rain to keep dry....I said to her " i wish i could go out there but i dont have a change of clothes!" But then i remembered the outfit i had for acting, and its "in school uniform" so i went out in the rain for about 20 mins playing hackysack with an old friend and a few of her friends. Then I got changed and go alot of cat calls. UGH! But its high school and i was dressed fancy. what can you do? Then......DUN DUN DUN! DRAMA!!!!!!!!!!!! On my way back to math from the restroom, and i run into my ex boyfriend!!!! Now i broke up with him cause i want to get closer to God again. So he saw me and ran up to hug me and we were talking for a bit. Then he said that he misses me and kisses my head like he used to. Now to tell you the truth, i missed him as well. So picture if you will.........ex boyfriend misses ex girlfriend and ex girlfriend misses ex boyfriend and both are single. one word......HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wont lie....i did kiss him a few times and i felt something! I really want to get back with him but two things are keeping me from that. One....is it Gods will? and two.....hes gonna be gone next year. :(. Ill see what goes on and keep posted! GOD BLESS EVERYONE!

7 more days left of school? Where did the time go?

Wow...I cant believe it. 7 more days of school left!? Thats just so amazing. ITs like where did the time go!? Its like i remember my frist day of freshmen year and now im about to be over with school? Thats just nuts. Like......wow. WELL ANYWAY! Finals are going good. I had to cram last night cause i wanted to do well on my science...I really hope i did well! Iys just so cool how I have had Jesus with me for almost 3 year already! Hes been with me sence freshmen year and i swear i have no idea what i would have done without him in my life! Hes done so many things thats its just too much to even say. All the gifts hes givin me, all the love ahe has shown, all the message hes has told me thru friends and the Word! How awesome is our God!? ANd now look, my 3rd year of high school is about to be over. When i thought that freshmen year was long. The other two years just flew by! Well back to whatever it is i was writing about. Finals. I HATE THEM! But what can you do huh? Gotta take them.....gotta pass them, and very soon forget about them! Thank God for that last part! lol.....so yea.....thats really all i have for today. I was justing thinking about how school is almost over and i thought i would share!

English Essay........o wow.

I had my English essay today......i was late to school so i did not get to finish. But you know what the topic was? It was to write about how the vaules used in an Inner Sprituial Transformation can help people in real life. im like.....wow! You can bet i had no trouble thinking about what i was gonna write about. I first went off explain that if people oick to believe there is a God( which we all know there is but this is for my English teacher) then they feel they have a purpose here on earth and that they are gonna go somewhere after this and not be in the ground for good after they die. Thats all i got up too. But im gonna go on explain.......o wow...i forgot my 2nd one. Its writin on my paper so ill have it when I go back to finish it. and my thrid thing was how we all get stressed out sometimes and it feels like we have the weight of the world on our sholders, but its not so bad when you have Jesus right behind you to give you a hand. I STILL cant think of the 2nd one.....lol! wow. major brain gap. o well. So yea..4th peeriod we did essay as well and that was just what i thought of the class. Its musical theather. First class we have ever had at our school. After that we are all there singing and danceing to show tunes.....what ever we knew. 6th period was acting and i had my outfit for the skit and everything, to find that im going next class. UGH! But o well. Then lunch with my crazy friends Jackie and Andrea. I love them......the both of them together is like setting off a time bomb! At any moment they could EXPLODED!!!!!!!!!! lol. Then I had 8th perid. which is math. yuck. All i did was finish some stuff that had to be turned in and then after that just chill. Then after school i met up with my sister ( best friend....we call eachother sisters) and the best buddies club at my school, and went across the street to a pizza place to have our last outing of the year!!!! WOOT!!!!! That was fun. Blondie and I STUFFED our faces with pizza, soda and cake......i need to do alot of biking to get all that off me. With my sister, shes lucky......its gonna burn off within 5 mins. ANYWAY! So yea. Her mom took me home and now im just chillen here on Mysapce, Facebook and Blogger. LOL! So yea......Thats my day. Remember how i said that when i write, i feel like everything around me just blockes out.......writing on my blog is the same thing! I am th only person i know that can take a really boring day, and make it sound cool and fill up this much space! LOL! I space out while writing!

WOOT!

Oh man Lord Jesus!

The Lord is so cool! I mean really! No matter how bad i feel, with a bit of prayer, you can feel better again. So many rumors are passing by me like wild fire and i cant get out of it, my FAMILY is making fun of me about my weight, and i just felt like crud today. The only thing that kept me going was God. God was there telling me that its all OK. He was telling me that I am made the way He wanted me to be and that it was all gonna be ok. Now as a teen, i was thinking about starving myself, but after 10 mins, i shook it off and started crying and praying. Cause i know that its WRONG! All girls who may read my blog......if you starve yourself or force yourself to throw up.....i really want to say, stop! God does not want you to feel like crud about yourself! God loves you.....and most likly, your not fat,or over weight! Most likly your underweight but are tring to meet the standers of the world! To look like modles........trust me..most likly THEY dont even look like that! Its all computerized and junk. Dont follow the way that the world wants you, follow what God wants for you, and what you may be doing, may not be his plan. OK, im sorry, i had to put that little tidbit. lol......but besides that, my day was really good! Im gonna do my acting final tomorrow! Im excited! WOOT! Wish me luck! BYe and God bless

(wow what a random blog post today!)

God.......I LOVE YOU!

Wow! God is just.....awesome! Like its just so....awesome. LOL! I met up with my friends from my freshmen year. Gaby, Vani, and Saghi, Carlos,David, and Jeff! Our "little group" met up on friday at Gabys house. We were having a good time just chillin and we watched the movie mouse hunt. I SWAER! If we were at the movies for real, we would have been kicked out cause of all the talking and laughing we did! LOL! So after that was done, we sat around and talked and ate icecream,,,yum. Now heres something really funny. You know your around Jesus Freaks when someone says we are gonna read the bible, and everyone cheers!!!!!! lol. But little did i know my heart was gonna be effected in a HUGE way! I had been down with God for a while now s i am JUST getting back with God. So my friend Vani read to us James Chapter 4. And im telling you, everything she was reading, was kinda like she was reading my heart, my mind, my soul. And i started breathing really hard. My heart was beeting really fast,and i could not stop thinking about God. All 3 ways i feel God with me, was there at that moment! Then we had prayer before we had to leave. The prayer is what got me. She was praying for everyone, and she came to my request about getting closer with God. I felt God just go thru me! And i was like " THANK YOU LORD JESUS! THANK YOU FOR EVERTHING! FOR NOT LEAVING ME! FOR NOT GIVING UP ON ME! FOR LOVING ME NO MATTER WHAT!!!!!" I was just praying that in my head and i started crying! LUCKLY, i was able to whip my tears away without anyone seeing after the prayer. Then Gaby,Vani,and Saghi took me home and we were just chatting about the time we had and they were reading some of my poems and everything. And after i got home, i started reading my bible. I had not done that in a long time! THANK YOU LORD JESUS! Its amazing what God can do with good friends! So yea.....I have a little bible now so i can take it to school and other places. Now i just need to find a mini book bag so i can carry my bible and my 3 journals! lol!

Finals, Finals, and, you guessed it...more finals!

Yup...Its the dretful time of FINALS again! And i have one thing to say to that...UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate finals! I took 4 essay finals today! But, what can you do. Sence its essays an im good at writing, i have been taking the extra to talk to God a bit and write in my journal and look back at some entries i have writin and poems from the past and get some bible verses that friends send me from my cell phone down in my 3rd journal. Yes....I have 3 journals....always with me. The first one is for my personal entries. The 2nd one is for poems that i have writin........and the 3rd is for bible verses. But enough about my journals. Back to my day. Im in 7th period right now, and i finished my final. Now im just chilling on my blog! I swear, writing is like my great escape! I love to write! I love how everything that goes on around me just seems to not matter when i am writing. LIke right now! I just broke it to change the song on my ipod. Im listening to "We Pray" by BarlowGirl right now. Its a good song. So yea. I cant wait for the summer! VBS, Lake Junaluska, and hanging out with my best friends! WOOT! Exciting huh? My best friend Blondie is helping out with VBS.....we are doing drama department! WOOT! I wanted music but they had enough people helping out with music. Then I am gonna spend as much time with Blondie and Stephabug the week after that cause then the next week I am in North Carolina! WITHOUT THEM!!!!! :(. But you can bet i am going to call them when ever i can! lol. Well, sence i am now just writing random stuff,im gonna stop typing now! BYE BYE!

More Rain!

Wow....3 posts in one day. IM on fire! WOOT! Anyway. Im here at home and im eating dinner, home alone.....and i started to feel down cause of something that someone had just told me. I kept praying and i felt much better. Then i heard thunder outside! Then after a while it started to rain a little bit. Then it started to pour. Thats when i went outside! I just love the rain so much! i put on my ipod to keys to the kingdom by group one crew and i was praying durring that. Then the song What if his people prayed by casting crowns came on....im there in the rain lifting my hands to the Lord and letting the rain freely fall on me while i was singing that! I just love how the rain can effect me so much! I feel like God is telling me that all is forgivin and the rain comes and washes it all away! I just love how God works!

Biking in the Rain.

Yup. The crazy person i am just went biking in the rain. Well, I was riding while it was still dry. So I had not been on my bike in the longest time. So I rode around from my house to the same area like a mile away, like 3 times. I was on the route back to my house when it started raining. First im like " UGH! " But then I said " Just what the doctor ordered!" lol. Cause i LOVE the rain. So im going back to my house in the rain with my ipod on, but then i just made a turn and said " Im gonna stay out here for a bit" So Im biking and you can guess all the crazy looks from drivers im getting. But im there, listening and singing along to all the songs that come on, and i felt like God was really cleaning me! Like Hes just whiping away EVERYTHING i had been doing for a while that He would not aprove of. The area i kept going around was my 2nd church. And while i was there for the third time, i rested a bit. A few mins later i see my good friend Jenny come out from work. We talked and i told her about my biking in the rain and all......and were just chattin about other things. Then she got into her car to drive home. Just as i got back on my bike, the song "Everlasting God" comes on. Now i LOVE that song! So the whole entire way home im singing( out loud) "You are the everlasting God....everlasting God, you do not faint you dont grow weary! Your the defender of the weak, you comfert those in need, you lift us up on wings like egals!" And the song is right! God is there. ALL THE TIME! Watching out for us whenever we need Him. He comferts us when we need Him.......He gives us strenght to carry on the battle that we fight everyday! I just love how God can talk to us in so many ways!!!!!!! God is just......as awesome as can be! THANK YOU GOD!

How does God work so...perfectly!!!???

I swear! How does He do it!? Its so beyond my mind! This morning i was like really depressed, but somewhere in 1st period, just listening to my ipod, i got happy. Like I really felt happy! I was joking around with my friends, laughing at anything i thought was funny, and just enjoying every moment! Like, how does God do it!? Today is a brand new day for me. I am turning over the leaf i have been with of being in the world for a while, and getting back with God again! Being in the world, its not worth it! I can really say its not worth it! In the end, all you get is pain, and fear, and a few other bad things along with it. Being with God, and being in the world, is NOT the same at all. Like in the world, you have to meet everyones standers for them to like you. With God, HE ALREADY LOVES YOU! Theres nothing you HAVE to change about you. Now if you WANT to change for God, thats a different story! Worldly love..........can not COMPARE to the love that your Heavenly Father has all ready givin you! Man....look at me! Im just going on and on about how awesome Gods power and might really is! Man do i miss this feeling! I forgot where it is in the bible......but theres a verse that says something like "my old self has been crusafied with Christ, and my new self lives for His glory" Dont quote me on it cause im not so sure. Well today i am letting my old self die along with Christ and letting my new new self live for His Glory once again! I LOVE YOU LORD JESUS!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THAT YOU DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Best Friends.

I swear. What would life be like without your CRAZY best friends. All wyas there to back you up. To pick you up when your down, and to just have someone to be really random and hyper with! Thats how I feel with thses two with me! We have Blondie( the blonde haired girl) Stephabug( the black haird girl) and Shanaynay( ME!) As you can tell, we spend alot of time together! Cuase we just love being around eachother so much! You can always count on your best friends to be there for you and vice versa! WOOT! THANK GOD FOR BEST FRIENDS!

Mothers Day!

So today is mothers day! WOOT WOOT! So what are you gonna do for your mother today huh? Take her out to eat, mabye get her an outfit, some cards and balloons, mabye some flowers? Well, how about u take the time to just sit down with her and chat. When was the last time you thanked your mom for something. Our moms do everything for us every day! Like if it was not for her, you would not be here. ( Now i know ur dad helped as well but save that for Fathers Day! ...........lol) But for real now. Our moms do everything for us! Take care of us when we are sick, your number 1 fan at any sport you play, work to get everything done, and STILL has time to talk to you about your day. Thats just awesome! And they do all this without pay eather( well, mabye her job pays her but u get what im saying!)So lets take today to let our moms know that we LOVE everything that she does for us. And heck, throw in there an "I love you" as well. <3!

Woot Woot! BLOG!

Well, this is my first time bloging so................yea. I only know that one of my friends has a blog but im sure a few more do! So yea. Today i am going up to church to babysit some kids as they take down a stage set we had. But its cool.........i love little kids! Mothers day is almost here! YAY! My mom said not to get her anything but a card........so i would go and get her something anyway, but this year, ill just grant her wish on that one. OH! Great news...........I PASSED THE FCAT READING! WOOT! The Lord was with me and I was able to pass! Now i dont have to worry about that anymore! lol...............well, thats all i have to write but ill keep bloging. Bye and God bless!